Day Fifteen: 13,871 of 50,000
I’m still sick. I can’t believe it.
I keep thinking that any day now, I’ll wake up and have energy again, will be able to go for a few hours without feeling like I’m not going to fall over.
I don’t know about any of you, but when I’m sick, my brain just won’t get into gear. This is my third or fourth attempt at writing this post, because I can’t seem to make any damn sense. Doing much of anything at all is taxing and tiring and really annoyingly hard.
It’s starting to piss me off.
I miss writing. I miss blogging. I miss feeling like I could possibly get anything at all done.
Yeah, I’d like some cheese with this whine.
I try to keep a somewhat global perspective about these things. I like to believe that things like getting sick two times in as many months is a sign that I need to scale back in my life and decide what is important. I’ve been trying to do a lot – trying to take on more responsibility at the day job, trying to train up for the Dirty Dash, trying to get more involved with martial arts, not to mention all the little chores that come with the warm weather of spring.
Oh yeah, and I’m writing a novel each month and trying to keep up with this blog.
My body is reminding me to chill the frack out. Demanding, really.
I can take a hint. It’s time to scale back and focus on writing and what is really important to me.
Don’t worry, this should mean I’m going to be online more. Because this – you, this wonderful community I have found in blogging and writing, this is amazing and important.
And of course the novels will keep happening. Because that is also what is important.
Here’s to scaling back and getting better. I’ll keep you guys posted.
And thank everyone for the encouragement and well-wishing. It’s keeping me going. Truly.